I really needed this today!

I have been feeling down for the past few months and just so upset with the way that I am dealing with things in my life right now, but when I got to work this morning I had a daily scripture and it really put my mind at ease! Matt and I area arguing today and I just needed something to take my mind and put it in a better place. I am getting so tired of everyone criticizing me about how I disipline my children. Yes, Savannah gets away with a lot of things, but she does get into a lot of trouble also. Matt keeps saying that she is out of control and I do not know how to handle her. He also said that it is a good thing that I do not stay home with her because if I did then she would get away with murder. That is not true. What does he think she does at daycare? She is there more during the week then she is with me. Men... Sometimes I just want to pop the fire out of him! He drives me insane over this subject. Is that bad? Here is the scripture that I received this morning:

TODAY'S SCRIPTURE"Let God arise, let His enemies be scattered…”(Psalm 68:1, NKJ).TODAY'S WORDLet me ask you today, what are you letting arise in your life? In other words, what are you focusing your words, energy, and thoughts on? You might say, “Oh, but, it’s just so hard right now. I lost a lot of money in the stock market.” “My health doesn’t look good.” “Somebody walked out on me.” No, you’re focusing on the wrong things. You’re letting defeat, discouragement, and self-pity rise up. Why don’t you turn that around and say, “God is still in control. Somebody may have walked out on me, but I know God is going to bring me somebody better.” “I may be hurting right now, but I know God is the restorer of my soul.” “I may have lost money in the stock market, but I’m not worried. I know God is my provider. He is supplying all of my needs. He is fighting my battles.” When you start giving God glory and letting Him arise in your life, you can’t stay defeated. Your enemies will be scattered! They’ll tremble at your words of faith. Begin right now by declaring God’s goodness in your life and let Him arise so that you can move forward in the victory He has for you.
A PRAYER FOR TODAYFather in heaven, I repent right now for allowing any negative, self-defeating thoughts or attitudes rise up in my life. You alone are my God, and I put my trust in You. I bless You today and always choose to look for the good things You have for me. In Jesus’ Name. Amen

On another note. Last night seemed like Savannah was out to just hurt herself! First thing she did was bust her lip by falling and hitting the laundry basket that was next to me while I was folding close. The second thing was... We were laying in bed and she ran down the bed and just jumped face first. Thank goodness for Matt's quickness. He got to her fast enough so that she didn't hit the floor too hard. She didn't care at all. Then, we were making the bed and she throws her head up against the headboard. She hit it really hard. I was a nervous wreck last night just because she kept hurting herself. There is never a dull moment in my house! She is just like her daddy when he was her age. He doesn't remember that of course and says that she is so out of control, but his mom will quickly put him in his place by saying "She isn't half as bad/wild as he was!" He apparently was into everything, fast as lightning, and hyper. Savannah is extremely hyper, but I love every part of her personality and energy (even though she wears me out).

I have been praying that I have a good day at work today. We shall see how it goes!

My Weekend

My weekend was great besides the fact that Savannah is now sick again! We went to eat dinner at Scalini's on Saturday for my Mother In Law's birthday and of course Matt's brother, wife, daughter was there. Their little girl has constantly been sick for 11 months. They will not take her to the doctor because their wacko friend keeps saying "Oh it is just her teeth and allergies." You can hear her wheezing when you hold her and plus she is so congested and stuff. I cannot believe I have such ignorant people like this to deal with! So, Savannah woke up Sunday morniing around 3am burning up. Her fever was 102.4 degrees and she still isn't feeling better. I cannot call out because of my stupid job! I am so ready to just walk out and go get my little girl. Last night she woke up at 1:37am burning up again. I finally got her back to sleep at 3:13am, so needless to say I am exhausted today! It kills me to see her like this. Matt's brother had the nerve to say to him this morning "Wow, Savannah gets sick a lot!" He is quick to point out my child getting sick, but doesn't care about getting his child to the doctor to see what her problem is. My job is the reason that I am at work and Savannah is at a daycare sick! If I were to call in today I would have probably lost my job, but I wouldn't have cared. Matt says that I cannot afford to loose this job right now, so I guess I have to do what he tells me to do. I am so misreable here. I do not fit in with the people here and plus I do not stay busy all day. I am usually busy for 3-4 hours a day and the rest of the time I just sit here. How irritating!

I had requested to have Thursday off because Matt was suppose to go and have a procedure done where they stick a camera down your throat to see what is going on with him. This specialist that he saw on Friday said that it seems to be a tumor. My boss sends me the request on Friday and it is still pending today. So, he was most likely going to say no. Matt has decided to hold off on this procedure for a while. He wants to get some other opinions first because these doctor's have put him through so much already and he didn't even need half of the stuff that they have made him do.